Understanding myself is messy
Lord God, I've been upset about something for awhile and I've prayed for clarity and wisdom. I have not been able to figure out what to do or why something has happened. You gave me clarity. You sorted the mess with me. I inquired of you, I sought counsel, and I opened myself up to the possibility that I was mistaken and defensive, that my conclusions were incorrect. You helped me humble myself. You gave me insight. You spoke. I wonder how many times I miss what you're saying because I'm so sure that I'm right? Instead of seeking wisdom and perspective, I look for someone to agree with me. I seek validation. I seek vindication. I see a mess even though you've drawn a clear path to knowing you better. I am so proud. I wonder at your willingness to forgive and direct me. Thank you. I am awed by your mercy and grace, as well as your forgiveness and your continued pursuit to use me. Every time I learn something new about myself, I l...