A confession of confusion over truth (and my excuses)


Oh, Lord, 

What is true anymore? It's hard to tell.

I can make entire worlds out of what makes me comfortable and justified,

instead of what is actually true.

What you call true.

I make excuses for taking the easiest path, for the sins I commit and the sins I explain away.

Show me where I listen to voices that speak lies.

Forgive me for my willful ignorance. You are Truth.

I look down on people for their sins while ignoring my own.

Forgive me for my pride. You are the Way.

Show me where I elevate my desires over your will and change me.

I labor to build my own kingdoms and elevate my own popularity.

Forgive me for my ambition. You are the Life.

Show me where I deviate from the life you've laid out for me.

Disrobe my deceptions and excuses.

Reveal my insecurities.

I want to lean into you--

into all of you--

all that you require of me and all that you want to forgive,

if I'll just admit what's actually true in my heart and mind.

Lay bare my defenses.

I will confess it all.

In Jesus' name, 

Amen.


"Surely you desire truth in the inmost parts; you teach me wisdom in the inmost place. Cleanse me with the hyssop, and I will be clean. Wash me, and I will be whiter than snow." (Psalm 51:6-7)

I am passionate about the Christian calling, my family, and the arts. And dessert and travel. And being outside in the beautiful world God has created.

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